allmistress:

Wow, I honestly can’t believe I’m actually writing this. I really don’t want to write this. I don’t want to post this. I don’t want to ask this - but I literally feel as if I don’t have a choice at this point.

I know I come off as a sensitive thug and that’s literally my personality…. I can’t change that, not even when I’ve been in a state of mind that has worried my friends and family to the point I had to make a choice and I began seeing a therapist & psychiatrist. I need to get better and help myself. I hate feeling like I have no control in my life, but sometimes that happens to us.

So anyway… onto the heavy shit…

What I’m asking is for help in paying my bills because my desk job that claims to be so supportive of people getting better (mentally, physically and emotionally) denied my short term disability benefits because they decided that I was in a state where I could actively work in an environment that expects your undivided attention to assist customers on the reg 🙃.

and yes, I am a sex worker and it would be a lot easier as a sex worker if I was some average skinny yte girl, pulling clients left and right - but no. And while I definitely know I’m not ugly or average looking, being both black & fat lmao, the amount of racism in being a sex worker of color is… heavy. it’s ugly af and annoying.

if I could just quit my desk job and make the same amount of money I make there, solely doing sex work full time…. I’d be doing that shit in a heart beat bc honestly? the job system in the states is ugly as fuck and just down right criminal

The fact that fat women in this industry have to work twice as hard as the skinny sw do. The fact that black women have to work three times as hard as the non black sw do. Sometimes I actually hate being a black sex worker, because people literally deem you as less and try to “negotiate” your prices down. This shit is fucked up.

So here I am, not making the amount of revenue I need to actually make any kind of ends meet. I haven’t worked at my “desk job” in two months and I haven’t gotten much of any sex work bc I’m not some basic ass becky nor do I want to work at a company that literally asked me to break my hard limits when they’re supposed to be promoting safe, sane and consensual sex work.

While I understand that not everyone is able to help at all, I would appreciate just a reblog of this post to get the message out there to those that might be able to.

SquareCash is the easiest form for me because it literally lets me take the money instantly where as PayPal makes me wait 6-9 business days until I can accept any payment into my bank account. But I will literally accept either one if anyone is able to help at all 🖤

SquareCash: $Aysis93
PayPal: paypal.me/aysis93

Literally thank you all so much, I love y'all asses.